On the hook

On the hook I woke up one-morning feeling I had done someone wrong, I had left a friend on the hook for too long I don't remember how we met back in school, I don't even remember who introduced Sarah to me; the only thing I remember is she liked me a lot but I had no feelings for her none what's so ever. I did what cowards do back then; I left her on the hook. She called me all the time, but I did not call back, and when i did call back, it would be to because I felt guilty for not calling her back. She told me her story her personal stories, but i never shared mine; So today after three years i woke up feeling bad, wishing i had the stomach to let her know back then that i had no feelings for her and that she was a great girl and would find someone who was better. But i did not do that, rather i had stuck my head in the sand wishing the whole situation would go away. I had been wishing I would find someone who liked me as I am and when i found one, i felt i had no feeling for that one. But here is where the real twist comes; The day i woke up feeling bad for her what the day i realized that i was also on someone else's hook; Her name (not her real name) is Sarah. This girl had the same name as the girl three years ago, I called her a lot but she never called me back, i shared my personal stories but she shared none. Realizing how wrong I had been, i decided to call the girl I had feelings for and set things straight and tell her how I felt about her. As the phone rang I calculated the worst-case scenario and the best all in my mind. The words came out wrong in my mouth, by the time the phone conversation was over, i was banging my head on my table, literally. I paced up and down the room hoping i had not destroyed the one thing; her friendship. I went to bed early that day hoping i would find an excuse to explain what happened during the phone conversation (maybe i can claim i was drunk or even half asleep when we spoke). The next morning I was clean, sober, and praying to God to fix what i had broken; and then she called back.