She said "no"

I had not even asked her how she felt about me and i got the feeling she would say no; Hey at least she did not break me into pieces and i did not have to damage the friendship i have with her, or even my ego (if i have any).
Let me start from the beginning ; We first met about a year at NYSC Camp, i had detached myself from my crew of friends and was sitting next to her preparing for the lecture program to take place. I had brought a book along just in case that lecture became boring she showed interest in the book and thats how we started talking and became friends.
She got posted to Minna and so was i, things looked good. But my hopes of pushing the friendship halted, our focuses were diverted; we both became executives in our fellowships and i sensed her focus to be more on her duties than anything else.
I tried keeping in touch with her, and after a while things went south; we hardly saw each other or called. I had feelings but could not find the right time to express them. There was never a right time, at least that was the excuse i gave myself.
Now the programme is over, now that our posts have been passed to others, i felt it was the perfect time to say how i felt. we talked, I asked her when she was leaving, we spoke about our plans after the service year. Then i indirectly asked her what her focus was, and to no supprise i found out she had no plans for anyother plans other than friendship. She said no !!!!.
Did i feel sad initially, sure (there goes my val plans). I am stronger, better and observant than I was before.
The world has not ended for me, on the contrary we still keep in touch as friends
and who knows, may be she likes me just as i like her but has no plans now.
To all of you guys who thinks the world a sad and lonely place, this is to tell you that you don't have to feel alone today, go out and give yourself a treat, because in the end when he or she says no to your feelings and desires, you will still have two friends you can hook up with, God and yourself. I intend on giving myself a treat girlfriend or no girlfriend.

Happy Valentines day.