Choices

Lately i had to make choices many of which concerned my present and future, being in school again under circumstances
i don't like has had it's cue in me. just today i had to scrible something that has been bothering me since i began here. i cannot live my life any more waiting for people to acknoledge me any more. NO!. I've had enough of waiting, of thinking that someone will find out that am uniquely special or extra ordinary like i see on T.V. Yes am special and unique but i don't any body to tell me that any more. God does that everyday.
Over the years i have lived my life trying to fufill other people's expectation and i have had enough, it might seem
selfish of me to be saying this,i just feel i have had enough of it all.
As for my social life i had to keep a low one, due to this expectations i have pulled out of nowhere, it's sad, even the girl i have feelings for (but am not sure she has any for me) will have to wait for a while for me to ask her out because i have put other things(which i claim to be more important) ahead of her.
All these has left me spinning, have i made the right choice to put academic work over a simple social relationship?
i honestly don't care right now to know!!!!!!!!.....................